Out of Control: How My Addiction Almost Killed Me

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It almost killed me," he said, although McCarron adds that Gaelic football was a salvation of sorts: "I love football and one thing gambling never took from me was football and no matter what I done or much money I blew, it never ever took away the power of football". The Dromore man said he met with the teenager in Kildare town while on his way to a Gamblers Anonymous meeting in Athy. Defence solicitor Peter Connolly had handed in to court a letter from his client in which he apologised to gardai. However, he described how his addiction has had a devastating impact on many of his personal relationships, including losing contact with his daughter.

He described the relief as "overpowering" when he was told in July that the DPP would not be pursuing the matter as there was 'no case to answer'. I was ten or eleven when I first began to notice how much damage their relationship was doing to us all. I needed to be able to pay for the place I was now renting, a classy apartment in the park in Dromore.They probably saw a very vulnerable individual looking back but, at the same time, it's a business, they don't care. Out of Control: Cathal McCarron's book is hard-hitting, disturbing in parts, but always brutally honesty". I had just turned eighteen when I marched into Gormley’s Vauxhall garage in Omagh and bought a new Vauxhall Astra Sport. Cuan Mhuire didn't allow visitors midweek, but they weren't going to turn Mickey Harte away," he said.

I know what I can do and I’d be confident enough of looking after myself if someone squared up to me. I don't know what it is with me, but sometimes I just can't help myself from pressing the self-destruct button.From where I came over two years ago, when I thought I would never lift a pair of boots and play football for my club again, never mind being in Clones on that day of sweltering heat, to be lifting an Ulster Championship.

Oisín McConville was the first GAA figure to go public with a gambling problem when he laid himself bare in his harrowing autobiography 'The Gambler'. I can’t say that I intentionally went out to hurt Emmett, but it scared me afterwards when I looked back on what I had actually done. He added: "It has been tough for Niamh to rebuild trust in me, but I am prepared to try anything to ensure she does. I’d love to leave football in good enough shape that I could give MMA a rattle for a year or two, to see how far I could push it.

The lawyer concluded that it would not be possible for the prosecution to overcome this defence and that therefore there was no reasonable prospect of a conviction.